Painful

OK, I think I am mentally able to write a blog about this finally.  So, last year around this time, we knew Kelly was leaving us, but she had basically found us a new nanny to take her place!  Whew!  It was so easy...then the new nanny bailed on us in July!  So...we were stuck trying to find a new nanny again.  It was very stressful...I wrote a post on it HERE. The end of my post was positive because we had found an amazing nanny!  And...she proved to be just that...amazing.  She is great with the girls, they LOVE her, she is firm but gentle, easy going but doesn't let them get away with nonsense, loving, caring, sweet, dependable, I could go on and on and on. She takes them to fun places (story time at the library and book store, Bounce U, "rides in the car,"  walmart, giant, and the ice cream place just to name a few).  She pretty much single handily potty trained them for goodness sake!  That in itself is worth hiring her for.  She has really become a part of our family.  SO...about a month ago, I came home from school one day and Cesar and Heidi both happened to be there (that usually doesn't happen because she leaves when one or the other of us get home from work).  Heidi sat us down and told us that her fiance' Jason had been hired by a new company...great opportunity for him...but that he was being transferred to PA!  I don't have any idea how I reacted...I am sure I acted like it was OK...but really, I wasn't OK!  Uggh!  We had found the perfect nanny for our family and she was leaving (in one month!).  I seriously cried for four days straight...straight...straight!  I just couldn't even fathom the process of finding someone new, trusting someone else with our kids, thinking about how sad the girls (and their mommy) would be when Heidi moved, the thoughts in my head went on and on...(I am crying writing this and I have known for at least a month now!).  The tears have mostly stopped but my sadness is still here.  Heidi's last day is next Wednesday.  I don't know how to handle it with the girls...saying they are going to miss her his such an understatement!
Thankfully, there is a small upside to the sadness...after interviewing about 15 people for the nanny position, we finally found someone we liked and could see fitting in with our family!  So, starting in July, Miss Sabrina will be our new nanny.  She seems like she is going to be a perfect fit for our family.  She is young and energetic, got rave reviews from all of her references (and some co-workers that I spoke with that she didn't give us as references), she likes to get out and do things, has good experience with kids and has her 45/90 (childcare certificate), and she works for a cleaning company (that can't hurt, right?!).  I have to admit that I am not as excited as I was with Heidi, but that has nothing to do with Sabrina...I am sure she will be great...I think it is just because having Heidi leave is still a bit of a shock...
So...here we go again with a new nanny!  Hopefully next summer I can write a post about how much we LOVE Sabrina, how grateful we are that she is able to stay on for another year and we don't have to go through the nanny search all over again, AND...how excited we are to go visit Heidi, Jason and baby Sealy in PA...ha ha ha!

Soooo going to miss this girl!!